I haven’t fully processed that this was the last time I would stand in this particular spot and engage with this view. It hasn’t sunk in yet that I spent the last three years of my life (and this pandemic) going to college part-time and working full-time. My memory of it comes in waves. Mostly I think I’ve exhausted myself and my brain was running my body on an increasingly narrow ‘sleepmode’ schedule.
Some things I’m looking forward to doing now
- Being more creative
- Sitting in parks/beaches and spacing out
- An abundance of flexible time to share with friends
I’m wanting to acknowledge life events
Regardless of their hierarchy in importance, I want to give moments a feeling of completion. I want to remember something that occurred in the day and confidently say ‘yes, that happened.’ It feels like a combination of acceptance, consent, and recognizing the limits of my boundaries. But I do think a lot about how much routine busyness is a distraction from living.
I had a conversation the other day about how in grade school, students are learning to stay at an institution for eight hours a day (I’m referencing modern Americans), preparing them/us for full-time employment. The pandemic has shaken up this routine and the people have yearned for its return but this blur of life is starting to feel absurd.
So I want to acknowledge moments more in the hopes that I don’t become resentful. That I can catch when I’m feeling restless and try to give myself more valuable stimulation.
Some moments to retroactively acknowledge:
- I can comfortably climb V1 – V2 now. I’m currently projecting V3s.
- I got a full-time job and it feels good to have benefits and paid time off.
- Relatedly, launched a client’s website and though there are some bugs, I feel good about having completed that project.
- I took my last final exam two weeks ago.
- Making small gains in the neighborhood community third spaces like laundromats and bakeries.
- Comfortably going outside and enjoying the sun on my skin.
- Not going to bed after having my nervous system hijacked by social media sensationalists. 😀
Now, enjoy the media portion of this post
Photos from the street
I tried the chocolate mousse dessert, shaped into a sleeping bear. It is definitely a photographic novelty and technically impressive. For taste, I do not recommend.
Location: 75 Degrees Cafe
6 responses to “Four months later—”
Zoraida!!! Congrats on all of your achievements in life 🥳 you’re a star!!!! time to celebrate!!!!!!!
Heheh the bear
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Thank you!!!!
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What kinds of games in third spaces? Sounds interesting.
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Oh! Gains and not games! Haha. Like I’m having more friendly acquaintance with others in the community/neighborhood
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Yay! Been a while. I saw your story yesterday on insta and squealed😂
“For taste, I do not recommend.” Oh nooo💀 It’s often the case with these overly cute creations.
And yeah, the pandemic really broke the illusion for a lot of people. So many things that we “have to do” (being in an office for 8 hrs + all the commuting) are just absolute wastes of time…
Congrats on finishing up school and I hope things at your new job go smoothly. Here’s to living more in the moment and taking breathers.🙌
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Lol if you must know, that bear’s mouthfeel was grainy and too watery gelatin—pure disappointment! Not like mousse at all.
Every time I see something as being at least 45min away on transit, I make a note that I have to be outside for at least 3-4 hours or else I’d feel like the 45min was not “worth it”. 😐
Thank you thank you for the congratulations! 🙂
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